At least, I think I am...
That’s procrastination, isn’t it?
I could be wrong. Maybe what I’m calling procrastination is something closer to Divine Timing. Or maybe Practical Protection.
I don’t know what to call it if I don’t go with the one I’m familiar with, but maybe there’s something more to it.
Maybe, just maybe, there’s a reason for the procrastination. Maybe it’s serving a purpose I can’t see.
- Maybe there’s some piece missing that I haven’t discovered yet.
- Maybe it’s not the right time for what I think needs to happen and a better time will present itself.
- Maybe it’s not the right thing. (I committed to a completely different blog post weeks ago that just refused to be written. This is what’s actually flowing instead.)
- Maybe I’m not ready to move ahead.
- Maybe ego thinks it knows better. (As it so often does…)
What’s called for is discernment.
Discernment, from the French root meaning to separate and distinguish.
I need to separate what I think to be true, from what is actually true.
I need to distinguish between what I’m afraid of and what is best for me, regardless of what my ego has to say about things.
It’s hard to practice discernment with a slippery topic like procrastination which comes with so many stories, so many judgments, so many cultural connotations.
It needs space to be explored. And it would help if it were more concrete, too.
This needs a ritual!
Say aloud to the lump of clay: “This is my procrastination. I do not like it. I do not understand it. But. I am willing to make space for it. I am willing to let it be what it is. I am willing to explore what it really is, to hear what stories I am telling myself about it, and to entertain the idea that it might be serving me in some way.
“Little Lump, I am willing. Here is your space. Teach me.”
While still in sacred space, engage with your procrastination.
Focus on your breathing for three deep, full breaths to finally close your sacred space.
Note: This ritual is the start of a practice. Continue to work with and explore your procrastination. Keep it up until you discern the answer or until your procrastination has passed.